I am so tired.
Seriously.
So tired even my tired is tired.
Even after a full nights rest, a cup of coffee and a diet Pepsi, I am still exhausted – and it is only midday.
In recent days I have battled with pride. Pride in not wanting to let go of something I enjoy. Pride in not giving myself care because I am a mom and “everyone comes before me”. Pride in not admitting when I need to be carried because carrying everyone else has been so rewarding, yet, so exhausting. Pride in not letting the Lord fill me up when I needed it.
Anyone been there?
Yes, I am a new mom. I am told, “Now that you are a mom you will always be tired”. Really? Always? Will I always be this tired? This can’t be what the Lord had in mind when He created families.
True, I may have a physical aliment causing me to feel fatigue. I am working on figuring that out. But, for now, I can only think of the past two years and what a constant stressor it has been for me – both good and bad stress. I am pretty sure the amount of cortisol that has been released into my system is WAY out of normal limits – as evidence by my growing midsection. (Can I get an amen?) There has to be an answer for this, right?
Why do we, women specifically, allow ourselves to buy into the idea that we can do it all? Sure, we can keep up that charade for a while but eventually (in the mid to late 30s for me) it catches up to us. And maybe we can “do it all”, but, should we?
In Galatians 6:9 we read, “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” While this verse is very encouraging, it does make me wonder the definition of “doing good”. In response to this, I have reminded myself of my priorities. I have taken inventory of my “to-dos” and am letting go of things. Things I really enjoy. And it is hard. It is hard admitting I can’t “do it all” right now. It is hard to focus on “doing good” rather than “everything”. But, I am doing it.
This morning I came across this prayer on The Unveiled Wife....and I think I will hold on to it for a while. Maybe you would like it, too.
Dear God,
Thank You for another day! Thank You for my life and the purpose You have given me. I come before You tired and ask for a refreshed spirit. I am exhausted and I need Your strength to carry me. Fill me with joy, so that no matter how tired I am, I rejoice because You are good and Your love endures forever. I pray for other wives who are feeling tired or empty. Help us not to complain amidst our weakness. Restore our minds so that we can still function properly. Give our bodies the energy needed to get through each day. We claim healing in Jesus’ name! Please also help us to manage our time so that we will get the rest we need. Help us to prune things that are hard to let go of that suck the energy from us. Lord, we lay our lives down at Your throne and praise You in Jesus’ name AMEN!
Seriously.
So tired even my tired is tired.
Even after a full nights rest, a cup of coffee and a diet Pepsi, I am still exhausted – and it is only midday.
In recent days I have battled with pride. Pride in not wanting to let go of something I enjoy. Pride in not giving myself care because I am a mom and “everyone comes before me”. Pride in not admitting when I need to be carried because carrying everyone else has been so rewarding, yet, so exhausting. Pride in not letting the Lord fill me up when I needed it.
Anyone been there?
Yes, I am a new mom. I am told, “Now that you are a mom you will always be tired”. Really? Always? Will I always be this tired? This can’t be what the Lord had in mind when He created families.
True, I may have a physical aliment causing me to feel fatigue. I am working on figuring that out. But, for now, I can only think of the past two years and what a constant stressor it has been for me – both good and bad stress. I am pretty sure the amount of cortisol that has been released into my system is WAY out of normal limits – as evidence by my growing midsection. (Can I get an amen?) There has to be an answer for this, right?
Why do we, women specifically, allow ourselves to buy into the idea that we can do it all? Sure, we can keep up that charade for a while but eventually (in the mid to late 30s for me) it catches up to us. And maybe we can “do it all”, but, should we?
In Galatians 6:9 we read, “Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.” While this verse is very encouraging, it does make me wonder the definition of “doing good”. In response to this, I have reminded myself of my priorities. I have taken inventory of my “to-dos” and am letting go of things. Things I really enjoy. And it is hard. It is hard admitting I can’t “do it all” right now. It is hard to focus on “doing good” rather than “everything”. But, I am doing it.
This morning I came across this prayer on The Unveiled Wife....and I think I will hold on to it for a while. Maybe you would like it, too.
Dear God,
Thank You for another day! Thank You for my life and the purpose You have given me. I come before You tired and ask for a refreshed spirit. I am exhausted and I need Your strength to carry me. Fill me with joy, so that no matter how tired I am, I rejoice because You are good and Your love endures forever. I pray for other wives who are feeling tired or empty. Help us not to complain amidst our weakness. Restore our minds so that we can still function properly. Give our bodies the energy needed to get through each day. We claim healing in Jesus’ name! Please also help us to manage our time so that we will get the rest we need. Help us to prune things that are hard to let go of that suck the energy from us. Lord, we lay our lives down at Your throne and praise You in Jesus’ name AMEN!