As we are patiently waiting for our completed (insert extreme joy and relief) Homestudy to be approved and submitted to Mercy Ministries, I find that we have one last task on my To-Do list for the application to Mercy. We have to write a letter to the Birth Mom. ***Sigh***
What do I say? How can I put such strong feelings into bland black and white Calibri font that I am grateful beyond words she is making the selfless and brave decision to place her child in my care? I. Can’t. Someone please come help me!!!!
I can only imagine what she must be going through. To be at Mercy in the first place she must be experiencing a great hardship in her life. A struggle that she knew she couldn’t handle on her own. She must be self-aware enough to know she needed help and is seeking it out through a Faith Based Ministry. She must have a great amount of strength. It made me think of a quote someone shared with me not long ago. “The most beautiful people we have known are those who have known defeat, known suffering, known struggle, known loss, and have found their way out of the depths. These persons have an appreciation, a sensitivity, and an understanding of life that fills them with compassion, gentleness, and a deep loving concern. Beautiful people don’t just happen. – Elizabeth Kubler Ros”. I wonder if that is her, the mother of my child? “Becoming Beautiful” is a theme in my life. It is a strive to constantly grow as a person, to be more understanding and empathetic and to develop a deep loving concern. However, this learning process comes with many growing pains. I am sure she has those pains as well. How do I tell her I know that? How do I tell her I think she is amazingly brave? I. Can’t.
Mercy is a place of refuge, healing and redemption. She will find all of that there. She will start a process of “becoming something beautiful” of her own. I imagine that she carry with her in that process lots of pain. Pain I may not be able to relate to. What do I say? I am sure she has so many questions in her mind and so many worries about the future of the baby she is carrying. How do I let her really know that he/she will be safe with us? I. Can’t.
I can’t because I don’t even know who she is yet. I don’t even know if she is pregnant yet. I don’t know anything. How can I write a letter to someone who isn’t real to me yet? I. Can’t.
BUT God can.
Please join me in prayer as Andy and I prepare these letters that will be personally addressed to the Birth Mom of our future child. Pray that we are given the words to say and that the letters will be filled with love, empathy and tons of gratitude.
He has made everything beautiful in its time. –Ecclesiastes 3:11
Thanks!
P.S. - Happy Birthday to my amazingly loving husband! I love you Andy!